Fuck life is so stressful right now. I have multiple people interested in buying my car but my mom, who is selling it, has a power of attorney for the thing that ran out today. So I have been trying to contact my dad who is now ignoring me. I think I made him mad the last time we talked on skype because I was so cold to him. Well what does he expect?! He abandoned me and my mom for his new family and he won’t even support us. He gets mad every time my mom takes money out of their account. He tells her not to take money out of his acount. HIS account! Bullshit, it is THEIR account! Prolly won’t be able to sell the thing for another two weeks. So I’m looking at another two maybe three weeks without a car. Fuck my life. Plus my my grandparents are getting more frustrating day by day. Not really my grandpa, he’s cool. Really its just my granny. Its like she slowly prys into my life trying to dig up things I would rather left unsaid. Then when she finally digs something out of me she likes to put in her two cents like she knows anything. Bitch, you don’t know shit about shit. She needs to shut her goddamn mouth.
I hate my grandma. I’m not even kidding about that. The very sight of her just brings up this intense hatred in me. I get physically and mentally sick. Its crazy. I have never felt this way about anyone in my life. I’ve decided I will move out the first chance I get. I can’t stay here with her or I will kill her one day. Everything about her pisses me off. The sight of her, her voice, the way she walks, the way she mispronounced everything, and how she thinks she knows anything. Like today I was pretty much cornered into explaining that I can’t get my dad to talk to me and she said she didn’t think he was at the base in Korea anymore. What the fuck?! No bitch, then he would be considered AWOL and believe me we would know about that. Then I wouldn’t have any problem contacting him. Also she just wont let the whole car thing drop. She brings it up all the time. Asking me why I didn’t just drive it down here, whats wrong with it, why are you selling it if theres nothing wrong with it, you know it would have been better to drive it down here. Oh my fucking god! I have told her at least 20 times that there is nothing wrong with the car, that my mom didn’t trust me driving it that far, and that its just easier this way believe me. I swear to god if she says one more thing about my car, my dad, me working, my school, and especially my mom I will break her fucking jaw. This place is driving me crazy. I’m turning into a version of myself that isn’t very flattering.
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